There are a lot of times I think humanity sucks, or at least common humanity, the people who walk around every day thinking entirely of themselves and how actions affect them solely. Take our neighboors for example, when you have 4 kids, but you let your own desire for material wealth destroy your marriage, credit rating, and soon your banking status, all the while your kids are just left to do what they please. I just don't understand this mentality, somewhere down that road to hell she MUST have seen the signs that said "STOP! You're not gonna like this ending" or "No exit but a harsh, punishing one of misery and poverty". Such is the trap of the society we've made, where you're given enough rope that you can financially hang yourself, all the while being bombarded from all sides with people saying "You need this! It will make your life so much better! AND you can make payments of only $29.95 a month!".
Don't get me wrong, I'm not without fault, not even in the grandest sense.
There's a great paper written by Stephen Nachmanovitch and Abdul Aziz Said titled Global Thinking", where they talk about things that shape our reality, and our priorities. It's an Excellent read, I definitely would suggest it to anyone.
I don't know why, but I feel lately like some door has opened in my head, some block that was there before has been removed and I can think more clearly again. I think it has something to do with re-reading Free Play: The Power of Improvisation in Life & the Arts by Stephen Nachmanovitch for the 3rd or 4th time. I'm coming up with new songs and new things out of the blue, and it's quite cool. Plus I'm in a relatively good mood, which has been pretty rare lately.
I got the car back from the shop on Friday... it runs AWESOME! Better than ever I swear, it idles evenly and quiety and even has some renewed power (it seems). YAY!
A. is finished work on Wednesday, which I'm quite happy about, it will be good for her to be able to get more rest, and maybe the cats and house will get more attention :)
I am such a shit disturber, just can't let people live in their little bubbles without poking and prodding until I get a rise out of them. Dammit, this world is not just how you see it, we're all here, and it's much more multidimensional than you'd like to admit.
If you're unwilling to step outside of your own little existence and look back upon yourself even semi-objectively, then you're living a lie. If you're unwilling to question things because you think that somehow that will show you don't believe in those things then you're deluding yourself. Embrace the chaos that is life, the anarchy that is existence.
Anyways, that's my rant for today
Re: the car.... I wussed out... found out the fuel filter is under the front axle, that would mean putting my car on blocks, and getting down on the oil-infested ground in 30+ weather. I said "forget this" and took it to the shop this morning. I know... it'll cost me alot more, but at least I'll get it done properly...
OH man... I ran across this CD that a guy I knew in college recently put out, just by accident really. Wow... was it bad, I mean... whoooeeee... The music itself was not that horrible, but when he started singing I wanted to run and hide. I got a good laugh about it though, and then I laughed again, and again. I should phone him and thank him.
We saw the baby yesterday! Yaaaay! Rambunctious little thing, didn't want anything to do with the ultrasound technician. Ran away at every point :) We figure it's got attitude, just like my wife :)
Oh yeah, and today is our 4 year anniversary! Woooot!
My car is being a pain in the ass, after the rain it started hesitating, and chugging when you step on the gas. It's kept it up, the mechanic I took it to says it's probably the fuel filter. I'm gonna try and replace it myself (BOOM! heheheh). Hey, I have the tools, the manual, all I need is a filter... shouldn't be that hard.
Gah... mondays... what the hell eh? Why do we have them and why is each one of mine the same as the last.
Here's what happens on my mondays : Big things! Big things that change stuff, or big things that you haven't prepared for. Companies announce stuff over the weekend, projects come to fruition, and on top of it I and almost everyone I know, are dead tired.
Why bother? Abolish Mondays I say! Monday newspapers should be outlawed (because they're just depressing), everyone would be happier.
I read an article from CNET recently that had me shook up a bit... what with this Worldcom thing and all ... agh... can't find the link now. But it basically had to do with the health of the internet itself. Telecommunication companies on a whole are having money problems, and corruption problems, and are being investigated etc. etc. Worldcom is first, but who's next? Qwest? AT&T? Darkling clouds man...
OH yeah, and I forgot to mention my car is running really crappy right now... after the rain on Friday, I think I'll have to change the plugs, and maybe the fuel filter.. feh
That's it for post #3 ... wheee
Well it's Friday afternoon and I'm at work... as usual, and I have a gig tonight at Mezza Luna with America Rosa (local latin club downtown). That should be fun, but man I hate Friday afternoons... it's like this: everyone else leaves by 3:30 or 4:30, I leave at 6:00 ... So I try to find things to do.
Today I've been learning the exciting world of the OSI Network Model, and let me tell you it's exciting. I can barely stay awake.
Things on my mind: money and pregnancy, boy, they just do not go together do they, and the lack of the former doesn't compliment my current mental state. August should be better , I get an extra paycheck, at least we'll briefly have our heads above water.
I almost preferred it better last year when I was unemployed and we were pregnant, because then I could keep an eye on A and watch out for her. I guess I'm becoming over-protective, oh well.
I guess that's it for Post 2. Have a good weekend all
Well here's my first entry, and boy oh boy is it a doozy... really... (no)
Here's the update for all who don't know... my wife's pregnant, due in November (probably, we don't exactly know for sure) she's doing great, no probems, we're very excited.
We bought a 93 Grand Am a few months ago and the more I drive it the more I like it... vroom vroom! Take that Honda Civic! vrooom
I'm not exactly happy with the seating arrangement at work, and so this is a constant thorn in my side 8 hours a day 5 days a week. Joy! Oh, and we're super dead because it's summer holidays, so that leaves room for many great boring snoring conversations that I don't care even a bit about.
There... that's my first post.. hope it enlightened you..