I eat tonnes of food and never gain weight. I eat bad things and never gain weight. I sit around all day and never gain weight. I have a high metabolism and always have, I think I've been at the same weight since I was 21. You may hate me for this, but there are things you may not know.
If I don't eat at certain intervals I lose it, I mean really lose it. I get shaky, I have problems thinking and talking plus I get agitated. If this continues I get more than agitated, I will say things I don't mean, tiny little miniscule things will make me want to kill something. If it's pushed far enough the only thing that would satisfy me would be ripping my own skin off or the entire universe imploding into itself. Death everywhere, death. I'm not kidding. I have had crazy urges to drive sharp knives into my hand when I haven't eaten and something is pissing me off. I would never harm someone else, so usually the hate gets deflected inwards.
If I eat, then all of this will subside within say 10 or 15 minutes. The next 30 minutes or so are spent apologizing to my family for something I did or said. This happened to me the other night when we didn't eat until 8. Xavier brought me back to reality by saying "I don't like you". I was startled, "Why?" I said, he said "You're mad", then I had to explain that "No, I'm not mad, Daddy just gets grumpy when he hasn't eaten for awhile. He doesn't mean it, he just get's grumpy". I realized at that point maybe we should try eating earlier, to avoid the wrath. I keep it under wraps as best I can but apparently sometimes not good enough.
Now I have to go eat something so I can proofread this before posting it.
Posted by Oorgo at March 16, 2006 03:09 PM Permalink - Category: Things | TrackBackOh, wow. I can relate. But it's the nutrition-starved headaches that make me cranky.
Posted by: gamutalarm at March 24, 2006 05:36 PM