Oorgo

36 - middle-aged?

I've been thinking a lot about this for the past few months, what exactly is middle-aged? According to Dictionary.com middle-aged is roughly between 45 and 65 years old, so I apparently have about 9 years to go.

I would tend to disagree here, I think middle-aged is all in the mindset. It comes hand in hand with the midlife crisis and it's a time when you go "Holy f$@#in sh$@! What the hell have I done with my life?" I'm at that state now at 36 and I'm attempting to make some subtle and some less-subtle changes to improve myself; clean up my time and clean up my house (both physically and metaphysically (Yes Pam, I meant metaphysically)).

That doesn't mean I'll post less, it means I have better things to do than waste my time on the following:

• daily 2 hour bouts with Neverwinter Nights (or other addicting games)
• trying to be something that I'm not (i.e. a computer geek). I can work in the business, but at heart I'm a musician and I have to stop denying it.
• delaying my musical career by one more day by doing the above

The following things, even though I may hate them, they are important:

• Cleaning up after myself
• Getting out of the house and talking to other people
• Finishing projects that take more than 30 minutes to do

This post is a reminder to myself, and a Notice of Failure to Comply from my subconcious to my lazy ego. I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and doggone it, people like me! *chuckle*

Posted by Oorgo at May 20, 2005 02:46 PM